I’m still dying… My friends have been available to me more, but I’m still here at the house… I’m still feeling the same way too. I want college to start soooooooooooo badly it’s insane! Who says that? People yearn for summer and I want it to end as soon as possible. Lol. I’m still looking for places to live. I came to terms that I am gonna be home for my freshman year, or the first semester. Its stinks, but it’s the smart thing to do. It just kills me though. I’m in this odd depression. I have nothing to do, and all this excitement that should be happening to me is not. I been reading my other senior friends’ journals, and talking to others and they are all out looking for stuff for their dorm, and just enjoying freedom. I’m here decomposing at home! I can’t even go into a Wal-mart without falling into a deeper depression. The same goes to Target. All the dorm stuff on sale… Now I’m getting things in the mail… I am actually looking forward to going to work, and I’m still not working enough! Who gets 100-150$ on their pay check. Oh and its worst than it sounds! I only get paid bi-weekly! I’m hopefully gonna get a job at this adorable gourmet cupcake place downtown. That would be good, kills more of my unbearable free time. Also get more money. I just feel like I could cry I’m sooo bored… I’m just not myself. My mom even noticed my whole depression thing. I told her about it, and she completely understands in a way. It’s weird. She asked if I wanted to make my current (fugly!) room into a dorm. I said I was fine, we couldn’t afford it. It did make me feel better to know that she cared. Then I got to thinking. Why not make my room into a dorm? A lot of the stuff is relatively cheap. It’s easier to do than get a place. So I’m gonna do it. I’m totally not joking. When I’m done I will upload a photo here. I need a project.